"Manipulation. One sided. Small gifts. Holidays. Big gifts. Car. Move in. Cry" - R
"Really?" - ?
"Yeah, i think that's her pattern" - R

23rd of April 2015, 5:25pm



But it still doesn't seem right."

7th of April 2015, 1.02am


Mau loa

  • Iconic coconut-less palm trees everywhere we go
  • Nice all round summer mornings, afternoons and nights
  • Texas University women's volleyball team
  • Wrong Hilton
  • Trolleys
  • Diners
  • Amazingly friendly service
  • Mike the waiter/ beatboxer 
  • Waikiki Beach
  • Grocery shopping
  • Gym
  • ESPN NBA everyday 
  • Urban Outfitters
  • Sephora
  • Kualoa Range
  • ATV Tour
  • Jungle Expedition
  • God of War
  • Jurassic Park
  • Lost
  • Gym
  • Ala Moana Shopping Centre
  • Nordstorm
  • Milano Blahnik
  • Cheeseburger
  • Tenpanyaki
  • Justin the passionate Tenpanyaki chef
  • Leonard the spanish teacher/ chess player
  • Leonard's 76th birthday
  • Zumiez
  • Stoners at Zumiez
  • Intense Chess Tournament
  • Strongest chess player loves his fruits
  • Manifest Bar
  • Gin and Tonic
  • Aussie Aussie Aussie 
  • Jordan, John, Mike, Irwin the Hawaiian locals
  • Lets get wasted babe
  • Princess Paul
  • White wasted Paul
  • $100 if you vomit in the taxi Paul
  • Vomit in hotel toilet Paul
  • Vomit in hotel sink River
  • Hangover
  • Wake up
  • Still hangover
  • Waikiki Beach
  • Shaved ice cream
  • Nap on the beach
  • No Strings Attached
  • Room service
  • Alamo
  • Yay car
  • Driving on the left side
  • Laniakea Beach
  • Wrong Beach
  • Turtle Beach
  • North to East drive 
  • Lanikai Beach
  • Lanikai Beach
  • Lanky Beach
  • Puffs
  • Waikele Outlets
  • Yay weed
  • Joints from here on 
  • Best shaved ice in a pineapple experience
  • Longest street in Honululu
  • Hanauma Bay
  • Cloudy
  • Last minute shopping
  • Withdraw more money
  • Zumiez
  • Girlfriend's make up want list
  • Nars
  • Asian store with cheap awesome food
  • Balcony sunset sessions
  • Summer nights high walks
  • Hardcore munchies
  • Hardcore munchies round 2
  • Hardcore munchies room service
  • Vinyls
  • Diamond Head Crater
  • Hottest day to do a hike
  • Exercise all the munchies away
  • Last day, cry



"You're crazy, you make things up. You believe what you want to believe and that's it, that's your reality and nobody else's."

14th of February 2015, 2.39pm



This is probably one of the worst experiences i've had with drugs. Seeing someone i love so much have no control over their body was one of the most scariest moments of my entire life.
You think that you have control over the situation and everything can simply stop.
Then when it does stop and he says to you that he thought he was dead and that he was trapped.

Somewhere in the past year i started to abuse drugs. I'm not denying it, It made me feel better, it made me feel somewhat alive. It made things more fun.

But it had to get to this point to rock me back to reality.
It's all fun and games until you directly experience a body without a soul.



"I love your lips!" - ?
"Aw thank you" - R
"How long does it last? 6 months?" - ?

16th of February 2015, 9.42pm



"I'm thankful for my years spent with this family, for everything we shared, every chance we had to grow. I'll take the best of them with me and lead by their example wherever I go. A friend told me to be honest with you, so here it goes. This isn't what I want, but I'll take the high road. Maybe it's because I look at everything as a lesson, or because I don't want to walk around angry, or maybe it's because I finally understand. There are things we don't want to happen, but have to accept. Things we don't want to know, but have to learn. And people we can't live without, but have to let go"

I am obviously smashing this Criminal Minds marathon.